It’s Not As Easy As It Looks
I’ve been struggling this week quite a bit—and so soon after my victory on Sunday. I’ve had several ups and downs in the 2 ½ weeks since I’ve started, mainly due to the conflicts in my work and academic schedule. This week has been no exception….and I’m holding on tight to keep on track.
I haven’t ridden my bike since Sunday—nor have I been able to do any kind of physical activity. It’s extremely frustrating because I feel like all I’ve done this week is sit in a desk chair either at work, or in my home office. I’m feeling like a sloth. My lower back is starting to hurt, and I was so close to just going out for supper last evening just so I wouldn’t have to take the time to cook and clean up the mess. But I’m not ready for eating out yet—at least when I’m in this kind of mood. I recognize this mood as it’s the same self-defeat that has brought me down so many times.
It hasn’t been by choice, or motivation, which has caused my lack of exercise this week. I am juggling multiple projects at the chamber and often do not get home until after spending 9-10 hours in the office. Other times, I might spend near that much time in the office, but still have to work on my home computers where I use software the chamber doesn’t have. Then, what little time I’ve had left, has been spent trying to complete this statistical analysis paper which is due this weekend. Failure to complete this one paper by Sunday evening will cost me $1910!
If all that wasn’t biting me already…..my weight jumped up 1lb on Wednesday and held there through Thursday, and is putting me over the edge. I know…I know….they say not to weigh every day. But I feel it’s the best gauge right now to determine if I’m eating appropriately. Just seeing that 1lb increase—right after announcing to the world that I was down 2.6 lbs from the previous week was horrible! I hadn’t fallen off the “eat healthy wagon” or anything…so I didn’t understand why the scale jumped up a pound. This would have been enough to get me voted off the Biggest Loser show, had I been a contestant! Grrrrr!!!!
The cycle was frustrating—lack of exercising this week, one pound up, and stress to get this paper completed for my class have all added up to peck away at me. Plus, I had to cancel out going to a Living History Reenactment this weekend just because I had this paper to complete.
But I hung true to my word because I knew this would happen. It’s life…and sometimes life gets in the way. After getting home late, and then completing some more work for the Golf Play Day, I finally started on making a healthy dinner of leftover chicken breast kabobs, asparagus, salad and a couple crunchy green onions and radishes! I took my statistical analysis and decided to work on it while watching a rerun on Netflix of the Biggest Loser. I needed the motivation! Oh…I know I will never lose 20 lbs in a week like they do. Heck, I didn’t even lose the big drop in water weight that most people lose in the first week or so. Nor do I have the time to work out 5 hours a day like the contestants do. This is real life—and I have to deal with it emotionally just as much as physically! But I’ll take whatever will keep me going during the rough spots.
By the way—that 1 lb came back off this morning and took another pound with it! Good thing I didn’t eat out last night!